Purity

The Lord gave me a dream several times, it seemed far off and obscure the first couple of times when I woke up, and I dismissed it. One night the dream was crisp and clear and I did remember it when I awoke as well as the fact that he had given me the same message subtly before.  In my dream... I was going to speak at a ministry function of some sort.  When I arrived, I was pulled aside and told I could not be there because I had an STD.  They were very specific about what it was.  I told them that was absolutely impossible, I knew that specific STD was caused from multiple partners, and that myself or my husband had certainly not been unfaithful.  But no matter, they sent me away... Then I woke up.  I was mortified.  I could not imagine why the Lord would give me such a dream.  I shared it with my husband, John, who was equally puzzled.  He told me to just seek the Lord about it, which I did.  

The Lord began to show me that "unordained alignments" ... any person or ministry or affiliation that we align ourselves with that He did not ordain, is an "impure alignment."   Since we are the Bride of Christ, our intimate relationship with Him depends upon our purity.  He wants a Bride without spot or blemish, obedient and in alignment with HIS Word... in one accord, correctly positioned, each member jointly fit together, working in His perfect design. When we align ourselves with another entity that is not going in the same direction as He is leading us, or at the same speed or for the same purpose... or all of the above... we are not walking in His perfect will or His perfect time. Like Joshua, sometimes we are fooled by the moldy bread, and a sad story and see no reason to consult God on the acceptance of someone into our lives. The enemy is an expert on how to divert our attention from our purpose that God created us for. Subtlety is one of his best diversions, and playing on our desire to help our fellowman or even other ministries, we sometimes derail our progress in our purpose and relationship with the Father...even with the best of intentions.  Sometimes it is not as innocent as all that.  Sometimes it is an unholy alignment with sin that is in our lives.  Sometimes it is something that stands between us and Him.  It is all the same to God, and because it effects our intimacy with him... it is like an STD. He was clear... come ye out from among them and be ye separate.  Be ye holy as I Am Holy... 

I knew because He was so specific in the dream, I needed to research the specific STD... what I found is this: 1) it is the most common STD. ( spiritually speaking...it is very common these days for the church, His Bride to be aligned with a lot of things that He did not ordain... we know this) 2) it will cause one to be sterile ( spiritually, we can not conceive, or become impregnated with His purpose for our lives, therefore we cannot bear fruit)  3) if untreated it can cause an unnatural pregnancy, tubal pregnancy which can result in death if not terminated. (spiritually, without being able to conceive our Godly purpose, or bear Godly fruit... we can become impregnated with an unnatural, or unholy purpose, a counterfit... that can kill us... separate us from Gods purpose)

Needless to say, we reevaluated our alignments and found that some were actually alignments that we made without really consulting the Lord about it. Therefore, we severed those alignments, in love... and in obedience to the Lord's instruction. 

 I have been rather sequestered, for lack of a better term, for a time... as the Lord works on purifying me... I have asked that he would burn out the wood, hay and stubble.. and burn out all the dross to make me a vessel of honor fit for His use... I want no impurity in me to keep me from that intimacy with my Lord, my Savior, my Father, with His precious Holy Spirit.  

Teach me Your ways Lord.  Create in me a clean heart, purify my soul...wash me in the precious Blood of Jesus, Stir up the gifts that are within me, and let nothing keep me from Your purpose in my life.

His Light of Understanding

The "lake" is one of my favorite places to be.  It is a place for me to spend time with the Lord, uninterrupted... and generally... He speaks to me in some fashion with a message.  Today was no exception.  On the way home, I was thinking about how He teaches us. The messages of late are about being pure, being holy, as He is Holy... about separating oneself from the things of the world and being committed to Him on a whole new level. That is the desire of my heart ... I want to be more aware of His presence than those things which are around me.  

I have noticed that the closer I get to the Lord, the more I realize how much impurity is in me...How much more growth I need, how little I really understand about anything. The light of the Father illuminates all that is not holy, all that is not pleasing to Him. It creates an awareness of my need for Him,  the more I see the more I realize how much grace and mercy He has poured out to me... How much sin, disobedience, ignorance, selfishness, judgement and unholy alignments have been covered by the precious blood of Jesus.  How lost I would be without it's covering.  How thankful I am that He loves me so much to have sacrificed so much for me, so that even after all I have done... the blood that He shed  allows me access to Heaven itself. Wow!

I, being so insignifigant in the scheme of things, so important to the Creator of the Universe... I am in awe of His love for me. Thank you Father... Thank you, Jesus. Please continue to teach me what I need to know to be used of you for the purpose you created me for.  I don't want to miss a thing!